I have come to give you life, and life more abundantly.

Being taught how to live by God is truley amazing. I have to say apart from Him, i can do nothing. But please don't judge me or think that i am weak. I know you think that life is meant to be free and lived to the utmost without worries or fears...are you really free though? Do you know what it is like to be really free?
I thought i did, but then i realized I didn't know anything about God or myself or how to be a loving person.
All my feats of enlightenment turned into catastrophes, and i thank God that they did because some people are decieved into beliving they know all the answers to life, when all they really know is fragments and pieces of self and leftover knowledge of passed on philosophers. Okay thats a little harsh...but thats all i knew.

"But the wisdom that from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be entreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy."James 3:17

God, yeah he's wonderful. i dont't want to keep anything of my old self. i don't want to mold myself with experinces or worldly knowledge or euphoric experiences. I just want to be a new creation and take on the attributes of Yeshua...the Christ...Jesus.

And all who come to Him...SHALL NOT be ashamed or confounded.


"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." Proverbs 9:10.




God can give you what you really need, and he will give you far more than what you expect thats for sure.


He is perfect and He will make you into a perfect creation fullof life :)

I am sorry...will you please forgive me?

I am sorry if my words were inconsiderate of your feelings, or if they come of careless. If I am ever wrong I just want you to know that i do want to change...i always want to change.

Keep moving forward.

I am safe in His tower away from all of the lies, i am safe where the truth comforts me like a soft blanket. I am safe.

On the high places of the earth.

The more i love you and the more i know you God, the less i care about the matters of this world becasue i know your all about joy and loving eachother. If only they knew that loving you is the way to true happiness. God's love for you is perfect and undefiled, he created you just perfect and unique, he created you to go on a journey with Him of transformation...he loves you just the way you are, he doesn't judge you and he wants you to love yourself.

Broad is the way to destruction.

I imagined you cruising down an old country road in a mo-ped, enjoying the beauty of the rural european country side. Passing by old locals working in their vegtable gardens and beautiful young woman walking side by side in quaint counrty clothing, they started laughing to eachother when they saw you passed by.

"This is so nice and peaceful" you thought as the sun was setting and you looked to the hilled green pastures as the shepherd was hearding the sheep in to their gates.

You stopped by the side of the road and pulled out a soda from your bag to watch the sun go down.
Your mind started to think of poetry and the notion of God, and you thought of the progression of war and suffering.

You were so detached from the world and your mind was so lucid.

You felt you had reached the height of your youth and the peak of enlightenment, and felt it was now your time to help and enlighten others.

I wished that God would show you what was behind the evil of this world, i wished you would know that the Devil enjoys making people suffer, and he enjoys deceiving people with laughter and luxuries and beauty to make them ignorant that God sent His son to give true life and life eternal.

Your imagination has brought yoou to the most beautiful places and to where to most euphoric feelings.
But what about the times when they bring you to those fearful places, when you thought you could trust them they just led you into a place of fear and torment only for a little while and then set you back to lonliness.

I wished you would know that it doesn't have to be that way. That there is someone true who can comfort you and bring you into a peace that surpasses all understanding...where salvation meets you and true wisdom.

True light comforforts. Jesus is the true sheherd. follow Him.

I just feel...

I just feel so blah, so formless.

I just need something to keep me going.

Sometimes i feel as though my work is just stubble and i have to jump through some sort of hoop to get jewls. Is that how God works?

I don't think so.

God is totally domestic.

He wants you too succeed believe it or not.

The only thing that may be holding us back is ourselves and our stuff and ofcourse the Devil.

I can almost feel them beating me up and spitting on me sometimes.

But God is a God of peace and purity. Purity so powerful it makes your heart hurt just longing for it.

But when it happens it happens ya know.

When he walked the Earth he made hearts feel warm and accepted. He was radiant and joyful, undescribable.

What is this?

Lord help me.

Is it something inside of me that i can not be who i meant to be? Or is there some menacing spirit trying to keep me in chains. Who will set me free!

I dont want to ask anyone...i just want to forget the past and move on forward. Is there something that is keeping me from doing that? I wish i knew.

To know good from evil.